I don't understand this suffering aspect of our relationship with God. Just when I think I'm gaining some ground, it gets swept out from under me. Maybe that is the point. Suffering lets me know I'm on shaky ground sometimes. God shakes things up, so that what remains is of Him.
"Everything that can be shaken will be shaken." I just don't like it when it is my faith.
I know and believe in healing, yet sometimes I just don't see the results to my prayers that I would really like to see.
Then I question what I have prayed, what I need to pray, what did I miss? Does He even hear me? I know that He does, but it is hard right now.
And when I weep, is it for myself, or for the one I am praying for? Is it for frustration, or for deeper intercession? It is hard to know when the one I am praying for is so close to me. I struggle with what is fair and what is Justice? Let Your Justice come, o God....he has waited for so long.
It isn't my suffering that I'm talking about, by the way, it is the suffering of another that is breaking my heart once again.
And so I surrender to the Lord and His comfort, which I used to bargain about. " I don't want Your comfort, Lord. I want You to heal him." Not a good thing , I discovered, because then He removed His presence. I can't live like that, so I don't bargain any more. Well, not usually anyway. Now I still want that healing, but I let the Lord comfort me so that I have strength for the journey.
So God stops by in our pain and brings His comfort....and we ride the tidal wave of this round of sickness...but we are at the crest of the wave..now if I can just catch the view.....
"Everything that can be shaken will be shaken." I just don't like it when it is my faith.
I know and believe in healing, yet sometimes I just don't see the results to my prayers that I would really like to see.
Then I question what I have prayed, what I need to pray, what did I miss? Does He even hear me? I know that He does, but it is hard right now.
And when I weep, is it for myself, or for the one I am praying for? Is it for frustration, or for deeper intercession? It is hard to know when the one I am praying for is so close to me. I struggle with what is fair and what is Justice? Let Your Justice come, o God....he has waited for so long.
It isn't my suffering that I'm talking about, by the way, it is the suffering of another that is breaking my heart once again.
And so I surrender to the Lord and His comfort, which I used to bargain about. " I don't want Your comfort, Lord. I want You to heal him." Not a good thing , I discovered, because then He removed His presence. I can't live like that, so I don't bargain any more. Well, not usually anyway. Now I still want that healing, but I let the Lord comfort me so that I have strength for the journey.
So God stops by in our pain and brings His comfort....and we ride the tidal wave of this round of sickness...but we are at the crest of the wave..now if I can just catch the view.....
